Childless Mother an Infertility Poem

I wrote this poem about my infertility struggle on June 12, 2008. I got pregnant a week later with our first baby, which I later miscarried.
I’ve never published this or shown it to anyone other than my husband until now.

Childless Mother
by Jenn Rian
She is empty, She is hollowed out
Dry and solitary internal drought
Empty womb, empty soul
Partial woman not yet whole
Empty arms, empty heart
Fragile soul torn apart
A time to be hopeful, a celebration of love
Greatest gift sent from above
No longer overjoyed
Excitement is becoming void
Time…an aggressive enemy
Patience…a distant memory
Poison named anticipation
Disappointing revelation
Mocking rounded bellies and smiling faces
Make way for newer empty spaces
Blessed ones untouched by this invisible pain
No beautiful words could ever explain
Embraced by envy, the secret twin
She tries to strangle one within
Will she ever have happiness for a fruitful other
A heart broken woman, a childless mother

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Read The Short Version of our infertility story, or for the whole story read:
*Part 1: Trying to Conceive: Take 1
*Part 2: My First Pregnancy
*Part 3: My Miscarriage
*Part 4: Trying to Conceive: Take 2
*Part 5: Trying to Conceive: Take 3 Secondary Infertility
*Spring Ahead: Reflections on Miscarriage
*Celebrate Your Name Week: Jordan: Why we named the baby we miscarried
*National Infertility Awareness Week
*Childless Mother: Infertility Poem You are here!

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About Jenn Rian

Jenn is a bored and sarcastic divorced mom of two who blogs and vlogs because the voices in her head tell her to. She blogs about as often as she showers, which isn't very often. Author of jennrian.com and coolestfamilyontheblock.com

Posted on April 26, 2011, in Infertility and tagged , . Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.

  1. Hi Jenn – thanks for sharing this powerful poem. I too suffered a miscarriage with my first child, due on New Year’s Eve. I’m supposing it was my girl, but I don’t really know for certain. Thank you for bring brave enough to share this story with us. It made me want to go back and read my journal during that time period for me.

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  2. Very beautiful. Thank you for sharing this.

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  3. Absolutely beautiful. I have been looking for the words to express my own feelings on this. Thank you for sharing.

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